Nothing good ever happens

Good morning guys. If you follow me on twitter you would have known that I've been down in the dumps lately. I thank god I have supportive friends around me that hold me up when I'm down.

Pass few days I've just been lazing around and meeting my friends at a yewtee just to chill.

Got my hair dyed and I tried something new. 

                                      

Got my right side of my hair dyed pink. Super daring la. I find myself wanting to try new things now.

I'm still not used to looking at myself with pink hair but I will get used to it. And surprisingly, my mom and dad likes it too.

I'm in the office now and it's my first day of work. Dad drove from pasir ris to Panjang early in the morning to have breakfast with me and drove me to work. 

I am bored, as expected as I am blogging. Waiting for the real shit to start. That's what I like. I am hosting a lifestyle event on the 11th and 12th of October at W Residences at Sentosa Cove. Super excited cause I will be the "event manager/event organizer/receptionist". I wish I could invite my friends but it's by invite only hahaha. Maserati Cars and Yachts, rich ass people and opportunities. Who doesn't want to live the luxury life? I am glad I have the opportunity. 

Never will be good enough

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you to stay with me, 
I'm sorry I wasn't nice enough for you to love,
I'm sorry I wasn't great enough to want to be with me,
I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough,
I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough,
I'm sorry I'm not sweet enough,
I'm sorry I couldn't make you laugh like how she does,
I'm sorry I couldn't make your eyes sparkle when you see me,
I'm sorry I couldn't make your heart skip a beat, 
I'm sorry I want you,
I'm sorry I need you,
I'm sorry I kinda love you.

Happy 22nd Birthday Charles

Good afternoon guys. How was your Sunday? Mine went extremely well. Tired, but worth the fun.

It was Charles' 22nd birthday celebration yesterday, mad fun. bought a wireless speaker and charger set for him, and we used it on the spot so we could play music.

Bbq-ed, and drank from 10 plus all the way to freaking 5am. Played un down and it was hella fun. Laughed non-stop, enjoyed myself, really. It has been long since I had been together with a bunch of people spending time playing games together.

11 plus Yirong took the E-bic and drove me to Yewtee Point to get Charles a cake and we came back to surprise him! I love to see the expression of people's faces when they get surprised. Warms my heart. Fuzzy feelings hahaha.

I know "birthday" is spelt wrongly.

 Definitely an extremely wonderful night. I hope I will have more nights like this to come.

After we cleared the BBQ area we headed to the fishing jetty and continued to drink and played truth or dare. Cabbed home after that as I got a lil tipsy.

Going Jurong East for dinner for some catch up with my korean wannabe friend Daphne later. Sooooooo long since I've seen her. Supposedly supposed to meet my entire CDSS girlfriends yesterday but I overslept.... Sigh angel is a pig......


update @ 3:15am

Had Pepper Lunch for dinner with Daphne, and of course shop. I really need to control my spendings, situation is always me spending all my allowance before its due to get my next allowance... But the shopping urge is just too strong and I am really bad at self control :( Shit sucks, hoping to faster start work and praying my shares increase increase and increase!

Waiting for it to be 4am so I can go down and buy Mac breakfast..... I am starving.

I never expected you to turn out like this, I never expected that you were just like the rest. Nobody did. Guess you took me as a fool, are you happy now? You got what you wanted, and then you left. My fault to think that you were true. I guess no one is. Congratulations, you have made me believe that all guys are the same. Just 2 words for you, fuck you. 

Chill

Like I said Saturday was to chill. Left home at about 6 plus and met my dearest girl Qiqi at Lot One for dinner. Its been long since I spent time with that girl! Had dinner and chatted and of course did a lil shopping. Headed over to YewTee at 10 30 to accompany Zona as Charles was away, waited for the boys to come back from drinking and I stayed with them talking nonsense until 3am and cabbed home.

Simple simple Saturday. I'm up early now as I'm heading to town with my secondary school girlfriends! Then in the night heading to Charles' place for bbq. Yet, another drinking, and fattening night. Gosh.

You appeared in my dream last night. It felt so real, but anything can happen in the dream realm, but nothing is real there. And maybe, what we had, wasn't real too. I guess I have been missing you more than I should be. I'm sorry I'm like this.

5:07pm now and I just woke up from my slumber not long ago. Yesterday went really well. Glad it wasn't a screwed up Friday.

Left home at about 4pm with my dad waiting for me in the car. Had my interview until about 6pm, took a bus home and headed to prepare! Met my girls at Lot 1 at about 10 30 and took a cab over to Zouk.

Zouk was hella fun like always, and forever crowded. Ran back and forth from Zouk to Phuture and back to Zouk. Chanced upon my Kaplan classmate at Phuture too! 

Had 2 shots of Cranberry Vodka in the Club, and obviously it wasn't enough, so we went over to Holiday Inn to get more drinks.

Had it with coke and I must say it realllllly taste like a Coke Float. Played 5-10 to speed up our drinking pace. Went back to Zouk at about 2am and started partying the night away.

Close to the end of the party it was kinda screwed up. I am truly disgusted by girls like her. Wishing I will never have "friends" as fake as her, such a big disgrace.

Came home at 6am and knocked out almost immediately after removing my make up and taking a shower.

Its a lazy Saturday as I wasted all my energy yesterday night. Today's plans shall just be meeting my friends over at CCK to chill. BBQ at Charles' place tomorrow as its his birthday! My end Sept and beginning of Oct is so jammed packed, glad I'm busy, i don't want to waste my time at home. 

That's all for now.

Work it work it work it

Its 1:47pm now and I just woke up not long ago. As usual, I am tired, no matter what time I go to bed. I am literally forever tired.

Going for a work interview later on, super excited to know my tasks. It will be a new experience for me, something I've never done before. Very elated that I have gotten this chance. Thanks to some business partners, I have gotten this opportunity to see a different side of the world. An eye opener maybe, that if I wish to live the luxury life in the future, I've got to work hard now. You're never too young for success, right?

As I woke up I've received questions on Ask.Fm asking, How did you manage to move on from my recent break up so fast & easily? Some say I didn't really love him, some say it was all an act. Some say I had a lot of determination. I'll get this clear here when I have the time.

Had an emotional break down last night. For god knows what reason. It got me thinking a bit. I never want to share my problems & make my problems their problems anymore like how I was in the past. I will never fall back down because of anyone anymore. I have hit rockbottom before, and I'm never going back there again. Although recently there are some set backs, but I will get back on my own two feet again. Nothing will stand in my way from happiness. Never again will I depend happiness on anybody.

Enough of ranting for now.

Going Zouk tonight with my girls. Super excited because partying is best with them. After such a negative thoughts infested week, I can't wait to hear the bass and feel alcohol run through my veins again.

I think I should change my blog template. Its so.... uncool. Meh.

update @ 4:38pm
Waiting for my interview now and its so frigging hot, sitting here like a total idiot under the sun. Plus, I am wearing a blazer cardigan and nooo its not helping at all. I want aircon and I want it now :(

Dad fetched me over to town just now and in the car he was giving me "the talk". Awkward much. He was discussing on the qualities he wants in my future boyfriend. He wishes for me to complete my studies first, but if I ever have one in between, he told me to let him know.

Its so different really. My dad has never been like this. Ever since a year ago when my family split up, he has become more open. Either that or he finally thinks I am old enough. Its good, though. I finally can feel that there's a bond between my Dad & I. Before the split, the terms between me and my Dad were really bad. After not being able to stay with him I felt so different too, and that made me want to cherish him more. I'm glad my dad has changed for the better. Even though we still dont stay together now, he still finds time to spend with me, even if its just dinner. And he's still giving me allowance and sometimes a lot of money because I want to go shopping. Nothing more I can ask for when my dad's the best. Hope I'll never disappoint my dad again, education wise and my relationship wise. I never want him to worry that I am together with some jerk he doesn't treat me like how I should be treated. Still a lil girl in his eyes. I love you daddy!

Aaand, the sun ia still scorching hot. Ugh fmlkthxbye.

A 2 year hiatus is enough

Its been 2 years since I last blogged. Man, does time flies.

Decide to go back to blogging again because I found inspiration (not). Either that or its just because I'm on holiday at the same time. Hahaha.

Also, I think I should start penning down my thoughts, I guess it'll make me feel sort of better and get a better grip of myself. Expressing yourself doesn't hurt, right?

After 9 months of post secondary holiday, I finally went back to school 2 months ago. It was weird, and terrifying at the same time. The thought of meeting new people, and having to worry if I could get along with my classmates or not. It scared me, it really did. Also I wondered if whatever shit I'll be learning will be simple or complexed enough for me to NOT understand.

But 2 months have passed and I have just completed my Course in Foundation Studies. I met the nicest and most wonderful classmates there, people not of my age and people of my age. It was a great experience making friends with people older as I got to see the world more differently. I got to see how the older generation lived their life. And I must say, its way different than what I go through every day. it weird, but a good weird.

Aaaaaaand of course, I broke up with my ex boyfriend. Geez, I'm really glad thats over. I don't feel like blogging any shit about him or his family, cause, well. Just no.

In just a short span of 2 months, so many things happened, and many things has changed. Change is inevitable, and the changes that has happened in my life are good changes. And I'm really glad things did change. My life is extremely good now. I found comfort in my life, for once, alone. I thought my life would turn to be shit, but things took me by surprise. I can now say my life is 100x more better than it was before. In fact, the best yet. 

To the friends that have helped me & stayed through my darkest times, thank you. For being there for me and supporting me, for hearing me cry and deal with my nonsensical requests. For tolerating all the bullshits I've caused. For holding my hand and carrying me down the better path. If it wasn't for you guys, I wouldn't be at where I am today. Thank you.

Its 4:55am and I have a work interview tomorrow. I can't wait to start work. I can't wait to start doing what I love. 

Angel has got to go to sleep now.